This is the meaning of FAITH for me

Just wanna pour my feeling here.
Honestly, I have promised my self to not cry again.
To not cry because of them.
Because of TVXQ.
Because of 5 guys named Kim Jaejoong, Jung Yunho, Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu, and Shim Changmin.
But, it is hard like hell.
Everytime I read news about them I'll cry instead of smile.
I don't know why.
I don't know this is sadness or happiness.
But, everytime I read their news, My body will be shaking. haha
Funny right?
But this is real. This is what I feel.
So, I decided not to read everything related to them.
But still, I can get their upddate through my twitter.
And I am sick. Sick of those shit things related to them. *cries
I am sick knowing Jaejoong Cried in A-nation.
I am sick knowing that Kim Young Min said like that.
I am sick knowing the truth that "even their CEO doesn't even fucking care about THEIR MONEY MACHINE. Even their CEO doesn't even give them a bit of their appreciation to them."
I am sick knowing some fans say "I support Homin" "I support JYJ" and "I am leaving".
I am sick of all those.

This is not right. For me this is not right.
I have to move on, they have dream.

Last night I cried.
Not because I lost my faith.
But because of Changmin.
He cried at SMTC 2010 Shanghai.
This is what I don't want to know the most.
I read this fanaccount.
She said that Changmin's shoulder is shaking. Doesn't that mean Changmin cried so bad?
But He smiled. He smiled, preventing us to see his tears.
He already changed. He tried to hold his tears and showed us his precious smile.
See??
Changmin, the youngest that always together with his 4 hyungs, he want us to smile.
Not only Changmin, but also Yunho.
He cried.
Our leader cried.


This Morning I cried, again.
Not because I saw Homin cried or JYJ cried , but because my faith is getting stonger.
Knowing the fact that Shinjiroh Inoue has his faith.
Knowing the fact that JYJ want to sing as 5.
Knowing that Homin also want to sing as 5.

This is what I feel now.
We have to wait.
While waiting, We must support the boys.
Whatever the name of them, I don't care.
I just believe in them.
They still want to stand in the same stage as well.
This is just about time.
and about money.

Why should we wait?
Cause They said it.
They said to us to keeping our faith.
What faith?
Faith to always believing.
What believing?
To believe that they are still together.
What does that mean?
Even they won't give us a comeback in stage as a group, they will give us a comeback as a family.

Keep smiling, cassies. :)
Maybe their management can separate them into different groups, but their management won't able to break their bond as a family.

This is the meaning of faith for me.
Forgive me if I made a mistake. :))
Always Keep The Faith